From Crtrdge003 Sent Fri, May 14th 1999, 04:26
From Crtrdge003 Sent Fri, May 14th 1999, 04:26
In a message dated 5/13/99 1:06:39 PM Mountain Daylight Time, xxxxxx@xxxxxxxx.xxx writes: > Blue Calx and Whatever the song with the windchimes are my > favorites, for personal reasons (they connect with me in a certain way due > to some personal experiences, it's not cos i think they sound better). That connection on a personal basis could be the most important part. SAWII for me re-envoked emotions I had when I was a child. Emotions of fantasy and isolationism, it was so true to a world that I would love to live in.. a world that appeased to me so greatly that I wanted to saturate myself in it.. I spent the next couple of months concentrating on SAWII, going to sleep with it on every night with shuffle repeat on (oh.. that's why I'm crazy.. hehe), spending time concentrating on the sounds, where they took me, why did it connect with me so much, I loved it, it was like audible drugs, I listened to it over and over again and it never got old, it created a fantastic world I could withdrawl into, a world that fascinated me, it was a perfect example of what it should be.. it was a perfect example of what it meant, I understood why it was.. and I wanted so bad for other people to understand as well.. needless to say.. they never did. I don't want to hate anybody,.. all I've really wanted my whole life was friends.. something I've never had many of.. and no it's not because I make lude outbursts, people who do shit like that in real life usually have alot of friends.. hey, you know, it's a standard that admitting things like that makes you an automatic loser,. but you know what, I know for a goddamn fact that there isn't a one of you out there who doesn't have his own problems.. Hey, why don't some of you people point and grin at me and pretend you are perfect.. oh no, you can't do that, pretending you are perfect will make you imperfect, then in that case, give a little slack where it doesn't count to give you that little chip of imperfection that any good work of art has that makes it perfect "for real"... that is so IDM way of thinking..I will admit all my faults, I will admit them all.. and I will speak my mind, I will speak it all. That's better than the lot of you can say. -=Aaron the fuck